F#ck F.E.A.R – Paint Wars 2016

20160521_130729     Being the fat kid in school, I recall not being able to keep up in gym class and being made fun of because I was different. Being made to do it by the gym teachers or take an F (when we all knew that academics meant everything to me). It was humiliating and sadly has been engrained in my mind for almost 20 years now.

I have ALWAYSSSSS wanted to participate in fitness events. NEVER HAVE. Fearful of what others would think of me – “she’s too big to be out here” “she won’t be able to keep up” not to mention the stares and laughs. Not worth it!

Since being on this journey, I am saying Fuck Fear!! There is nothing and no one that will hold me back from accomplishing my goals. This journey is very lonely. It’s hard not having those in your corner that truly understand that you’ve made up your mind to kick being fat. However, my support system did not flinch when I asked them to participate in this event with me. Shout Out to my girls, Tanisha of @TheMackinProject, Jae – @GirlPowerHour, Nikki – @HeelMyHeart, Latorria, Nicole @everybodyluvsnikki. We all dressed up, supported each other, smiled, laughed and had fun the entire time. Thank you sisters, you just don’t know how much it truly means to me.

 If you are reading this and you have a fear that you want to conquer, GO FOR IT. You have nothing to lose but the shackles that have you bound. I am no longer that fat kid that is afraid of what others think. I’m living.

FEAR = Face Everything and Rise! What do you have to lose? Set Your Goals, Do The Work, SMASH THEM, Make New Goals!

-cheinspires

20160521_170007

Give me my LIFE BACK…..

IMG_9255.PNG

Lets go back to as long ago as I can remember……I’ve always been overweight. I am sure that I weighed close to 400 pounds in high school. I was made fun of, laughed at, butt of most jokes. It was the most debilitating and humiliating experience of my life. It still shakes my core when I think about it. Into my adult life, I was always the smart one, career driven, money maker but never had a “real boyfriend” only met men online because I could be whomever I wanted to be and never had to meet them. CATFISH! It all caused me to overeat and love on something that wouldn’t make fun of me or judge – FOOD! It was always there, always satisfying, always forgiving, never judged.

Fast Forward to 2010 (pic on the left), I was a new parent. I weighed 325 pounds. I was sad, depressed, unmotivated, heartbroken, alone, lost – I could go on and on and on. High blood pressure, diabetes, arthirits, joint pain were all apart of my everyday life. It took me years – 1501 days (4 years) to be exact to beat this addiction and TAKE MY LIFE BACK.

How did I beat my addiction? Yes, it is an addiction. Addiction is defined as “the fact or condition of being addicted to a particular substance, thing, or activity.”

  • First, ADMIT that there is a problem
  • Second, GET HELP!
  • Third, DO THE WORK!!

 

Looking forward to sharing this journey with you all. I’ll start with my breakthrough and what made me take control.

I’m sure many can relate to me, I am an open book. I want us to take over lives back and LIVE. Food is here to sustain us not control us. Be mindful. Join me on this journey!!

 

Highest recorded weight – 325
Current weight – 218